What I found on my old Tumblr
What would your past self say about who you are becoming today?
I often work with past and future self-talk in my intention-setting and manifestation work. I can imagine myself 5 years from now speaking to my current self, offering insight and direction as to what to do or not do that will enable that future self to exist. She’s been through it all already so she can offer a roadmap.
But I have a much, much harder time speaking to my past self. There’s more fishnet tangles of emotion with bright weights of sorrow and guilt wrapped up in it. I was not always a nice, zen-seeking person. I was certainly not always a happy person. I was angry, hurting, and bitter throughout much of my 20s. So speaking backwards 5-10 years to that person is extremely difficult because, even though I’m happy and blessed to be where I am today, the actions of that past self can seem hard to forgive in hindsight. But we work on that. Every day. Allowing and understanding and forgiving that her anger colored so much of her actions; admitting that sometimes that anger was totally justified, and sometimes it was utterly selfish.
